Karmic Report For
1 March 1994, Time: 0:56
From an esoteric point of view your birth chart is a portrait of your soul’s intention for this lifetime, the lessons to be learned, qualities to develop, problems to be resolved, service to be rendered. From that perspective, the choices one makes in one’s daily life have reverberations that may last beyond even this lifetime.
This report is written to help you clarify your lessons and goals, illuminate your struggles, and encourage you to move in the direction of your true purposes.
The best to you on your journey…
Chapter 1: The Moon
The placement of the Moon in your birth chart is very significant from a karmic perspective, as it indicates the accumulated karmic tendencies, both positive and negative, that you carry from your past incarnated experiences on earth.
While the Sun reveals your intended purposes and lessons for this present life cycle, the MOON represents what you have already done and developed, hence, what is instinctive and natural to you, and what you tend to do over and over again. Your childhood is also reflected in the Moon’s placement, as it is through those childhood circumstances that any unresolved past-life issues are re-stimulated. Your subconscious predisposition is indicated by the Moon’s position. It is the psychic imprint of the past. The nodes of the Moon describe behavior patterns from the past, as well as delineating a direction out of outworn or overdone behaviors and habits.
Moon in Libra:
Many of your previous life experiences revolved around the themes of marriage and partnership, and learning the delicate art of relating, blending, and harmonizing with another. You are very much aware, at a deep level, of the need for compromise and diplomacy, and you naturally adjust yourself in order to accommodate the other person, and to make the relationship flow smoothly. With your sixth sense regarding what other people need or want, you seem to know just how to please, the right gesture or word to disarm them and put them at ease. You possess a certain finesse, graciousness, and agreeableness of manner which has served you well in the past. When challenged or under stress, you are apt to depend on your personal charm and appeal and the kindly feeling you evoke in others, to pull you through.
Because togetherness feels very natural and familiar to you, it is difficult for you to imagine going solo comfortably. You enjoy being half of a tight couple and may feel empty and incomplete if you are not. Your personal security and inner well-being seem (to you) to hinge upon being in an intimate relationship, and if you are not mated, you need a best buddy or constant companion of some kind. Your mood is apt to be very dependent upon whether or not there is a “significant other” around. On your own, you are apt to be rather indecisive and uncertain. For this reason you may (subconsciously) feel that you are at others’ mercy, and will thus take great care not to offend or alienate them in any way. Interpersonal conflict and the normal disagreements that arise in any ongoing one-to-one relationship may seem like a great threat to you, and being socially “with it” may be inordinately important to you. At some level, you believe that your survival depends upon being liked, accepted and approved of. You may “play games” to flatter or appease other people, or deny and repress those aspects of yourself that you feel others would not like. You especially have trouble displaying honest anger and other “not nice” emotions. However, if you can avoid becoming trapped in the nice-guy or people-pleaser role, no one is better equipped then you to enter an equal, caring, sharing relationship.
You believe utterly in fairness and equality and that gifts (of any kind) should be reciprocated. You tend to “keep score” on emotional or personal issues. (“I called you three times this week and you only called me once”, or on a more subtle level, “I put more energy into our marriage than you do”.) Deep down you are very idealistic and have a yearning for perfection, especially for the perfect partnership. You tend to be in love with love or beauty, and to be irked by the more prosaic, all too-human aspects of relating.
Your instinctive response to life is to think things through first. You usually act from a thoroughly considered, reasoned perspective rather than from emotion, and you always try to be just and impartial. Other people gravitate to you when they need a sounding board. You will listen to all sides of a story before making up you mind, which (along with your desire to fit in graciously with others and not to offend) can contribute to your indecisiveness. However, you can also be eminently judicious, fair, and adept at finding solutions that meet everyone’s needs.
To be at your best, it is important for you to learn to center yourself within. Disciplines like Tai-Chi or meditation may assist you in finding and maintaining your emotional center.
Moon Square Uranus:
In your incarnational past there was a great deal of upheaval and sudden change, possibly precipitated by political or social shifts. You were forced to choose between your home and all that was familiar, versus freedom or your ideals. You became very adaptable, living moment to moment, and there was very little of a solid, enduring home-base. You lived a somewhat unorthodox and unpredictable life which, while insecure and uncertain in many respects, did afford you a lot of freedom and wild adventures. (The pattern of frequent change, movement and upsets in the home may or may not have been repeated early in your current life).
The carry over from that time into the present is a peculiar, emotional excitability and a highly, restless emotional state which at times can lead to extreme nervous strain and exhaustion. Along with this is a craving for stimulation and a taste for the new, bizarre, even perverse. You may feel that you were not meant for a “straight”, conventional, tranquil existence, even if you long at times for the comforts such a lifestyle seems to provide. A desire for total emotional freedom and release from past conditioning and inhibitions may compel you to make a nearly-total break from your family or heritage, to the point of adopting a new name, religion, or lifestyle than the one you were raised with. All of this may serve you well – to a point. Beware, however, of becoming an extremist and trying to rid yourself of everything in your past, “throwing the baby out with the bath water” so to speak, as this will cut you off from important aspects of yourself.
This urge for emotional freedom and excitement can also interfere with your establishment of deep, ongoing relationships. You fear being trapped in monotony and boredom if you commit yourself to a permanent relationship. Any long-term relationship you form must have a lot of personal space and room to change and to be spontaneous.
When out of balance you can become very ungrounded and are prone to emotional swings. Positively, you can be very inspired, musically or artistically or in other ways. When balanced you have a great sense of rhythm, and your spontaneous intuitive insights and impulses are apt to be right on the mark.
Moon Square Neptune:
Your sense of wonder and your openness to the unseen, subtle, spiritual dimensions of life are two of your gifts. You are extremely sensitive to the energies and currents of feeling around you and, because you are so impressionable and receptive, you are influenced (even duped) rather easily. Throughout your life you maintain a certain childlike belief in magic and in wishing, and you tend to escape into the inner world of your imagination (or anesthetize yourself with movies, or soap operas, or food) when the outside world seems either too dull or harsh for you. It is important for you to learn to deflect negative or turbulent emotional influences in your environment, as you tend to get “sucked in” to others’ feeling-world.
The “wonder-child” aspect of yourself can be invaluable, connecting you with the world of spirit and your true home. Along with this is a strong current of emotional idealism and devotion to the Mother. This gives you a great capacity for nurturing, empathy, mercy, and compassion, yet there is a downside to this: a tendency to become a martyr. Beware of sacrificing yourself to take care of other people or to try to rescue or “save” them.
Excessive dependency, passivity, and wishing to be taken care of are all themes around which some of your greatest challenges revolve. Either you yourself tend to succumb to such impulses (feeling yourself to be weak, needy, a victim) or you may attract other people into your life who play that role. For men, this can also lead to yearning for the perfect woman who will love and accept them unconditionally and meet all of their needs – but who inevitably disappoints, as flesh-and-blood women cannot fulfill that illusion for long. Women, on the other hand, may try to be the perfect woman, all-accepting, all-giving. Either of these can be traps for you.
You also need to be extremely cautious with intoxicants, mood-altering substances or practices as these can create much confusion and distort your perceptions to the point where you lose touch with your genuine mystical and intuitive abilities.
North Node in Scorpio:
In the incarnational past you developed a habit of tenaciously holding on to what was yours, and building security was very dear to you. You are moving toward a more passionate, and emotionally intense experience of life as you let go of your compulsive attachment to maintaining the status quo.
North Node in 12th house:
You may find that your past tendencies are activated particularly in your job, the daily tasks you perform, and they also strongly influence your health for good or ill. Exploring the deeper, hidden dimensions of yourself (through dream work, hypnosis) or purposefully engaging the parts of yourself you consider to be weak or unacceptable are also an important part of your growth direction in this lifetime.
Chapter 2: The Sun
The Sun in your birth chart represents the primary creative thrust for this lifetime, those qualities you are to develop (or further develop) and express, and your current life focus. This may be in harmony with your instincts and your emotional habits, or along completely different lines. The Sun represents your conscious identity in this lifetime.
Sun in Pisces:
The flowering of compassion through your ability to merge on a feeling level and to empathize with all, is a key theme for you in this lifetime. This propensity to share others’ emotional experience has both its blessings and its deficits. At your finest you have a deeply-felt understanding of human nature which goes beyond words or intellect, and which enables you to forgive others’ misdeeds and make allowances for their weaknesses. You are acutely aware of others’ pain, including the emotional wounds and brokenness they carry within, and your ability to listen with an understanding heart and to unconditionally accept people as they are can be a healing influence in their lives. You are inclined to exclude nobody. At a deep level you feel and know your oneness with all creatures, and thus every snail in the garden or stray cat is part of your “heart’s family”.
However, this same all-embracing emotional/psychic openness and receptivity can be the source of some of your greatest challenges in life. It is easy for you to become overwhelmed by the world and its sorrows, and to seek some form of escape from it and from your own extreme sensitivity; for instance, over using drugs or alcohol or even food to alter your mood, or retreating from life into the unreal world of television or other diversions. You may simply withdraw into your own private fantasies to avoid confronting the challenges in the physical world. At its worst this tendency can devolve into evasiveness and playing ostrich about important issues in your life. While your imagination and your sensitivity are the well spring of some of your richest experiences and gifts, if over indulged you may become passive, ineffectual, lost, or confused. Especially when young, you may lack a strong sense of self, of definition and identity, because on a feeling level you identify with others so easily. It can be difficult for you to separate yourself, to know what your boundaries are, when to say no or how to stand up for your own personal interests. Since you are not narrowly focused on self, others may take advantage of your natural generosity and sympathy. Learning and incorporating the concepts of discrimination and clear judgment will enable you to give of yourself in ways that are healthy for you and the ones you are giving to.
Part of your soul development in this lifetime also has to do with taking what others discard and fixing, saving, or redeeming it in some way. This could take many forms, from repairing and recycling old “junk”, to working with people who are disadvantaged, such as, the misfits, outcasts, sick, weak, poor, or handicapped in our society. This urge to fix what is broken, to heal and to make whole again has, once again, a light and a dark side to it – the dark side being that you could easily become a martyr, sacrificing yourself for the supposed benefit of another while drawing in trouble yourself. However, if you learn self-responsibility, your gift for healing or putting things back together again can be fulfilling to you as well as benefit many others.
At times you may feel that you do not really belong in this world for you are so attuned to the nonphysical, intangible world of feeling and of the soul. An underlying sense of “cosmic homesickness” and a yearning for the peace and completion of the beyond may be ever present with you. (This can lead you to become lackadaisical, wasteful, or out of touch with the material world).
However, attuning to this inner or transpersonal realm, and bringing back its gifts to share in this one, is really your challenge. Music or art may be your vehicle. You could develop your psychic sensitivity in order to help guide and teach others, or simply live your life in a way that expresses and honors your larger vision and your compassion.
Sun Sesquiquadrate Moon:
In this lifetime, to fulfill yourself as an individual, you need to develop and express yourself along very different lines than you have in the past. Thus, in many instances your conscious purposes and inclinations are rather at odds with the deeper subconscious beliefs, patterns and the familiar ways of being which are carry-overs from your incarnational past. Comparing the interpretation of your Moon sign and aspects in Chapter One and the interpretation of your Sun sign and aspects in Chapter 2, you will notice definite opposing or conflicting tendencies or inconsistencies. You will need to say yes to both of these sides of yourself, even though they may seem to pull you in different directions, for denying either side will keep you locked in conflict with yourself or see-sawing between extremes. However, it is also important for you to bring to light those emotionally-based habits, prejudices, and “needs” which you hold on to and which may be interfering with your current needs and requirements for growth.
Sun SemiSquare Uranus:
In many ways you “dance to the beat of a different drummer”, and thus may feel out of step with the “norms” and societal expectations of the majority of mainstream culture. Even if you appear, or actually are, conservative in some respects, you are intended to question authority, break old rules, and introduce progressive change into the world. You are fulfilling your destiny when you are innovating. You need to be using your creative intelligence, inspiration, and opening up new channels of expression. You are “an original”, unusual in some way, not one to follow the prescribed ways of living or being. Unless you surround yourself with others who share your unusual interests and inclinations, you may feel like a “weirdo” or an outsider. Certainly there are people who would consider you too “far-out”, and you may enjoy provoking these people, shocking them, shaking up their limited world-view. You can be prone to a kind of extremism, embracing anything new, experimental or avant-garde simply because it is novel. You are likely to reject “normal”, regardless of its intrinsic value. You tend to be impatient with convention, bureaucracy, the old school, and are unwilling to compromise yourself for the sake of fitting in. Freedom, self-expression, and individualism are very dear to you, and there is a part of you which finds any sort of commitment or mutual dependency binding and irksome. There is a rather impersonal quality to you in that your allegiance is to yourself, living your own truth, and “going where the spirit moves you” first and fore-most. Though you are apt to go to extremes, it is still important for you to live out these impulses which others may find odd or incomprehensible; otherwise you are apt to become quite tense, unhappy, and out of step, not only with convention but even with yourself.
You do need to incorporate steadiness, rhythm, and regularity into your existence in some way, in order to utilize your creative genius and originality to its fullest. The use of certain gemstones and crystals may be of some benefit to you, including clear quartz, topaz, fire agate, and opals.
Chapter 3: Rising Sign
The point that was on the eastern horizon at the moment of your birth is called the ASCENDANT, or rising sign. While the Sun describes your conscious direction and current life focus, and the Moon your subconscious predisposition and past, the Ascendant indicates a way of being that transcends and embraces past, present, and future. It describes the way you engage and merge with the outer world and how you bring through into life the energies depicted by the Sun, the Moon, and the rest of your birth chart. Everything is filtered through the Ascendant from an esoteric point of view. It indicates your soul’s function and thus a key part of your destiny.
You have keen animal instincts, a deeply instinctual and passionate nature, and access to forces that can be used for healing and regeneration – of yourself, other individuals, or society. Strong-willed and powerful in a quiet understated sort of way, you are always a force with which to be reckoned. You know intuitively where another’s pain or weakness lies, and can thus be a natural healer – or a terrible enemy, if your energies are directed toward conflict. Learning to trust and follow your instincts, and to focus your will upon positive intents, are keys to fulfilling your highest destiny. Your ruling planets are Mars and Pluto.
Scorpio Rising and Mars in Aquarius:
Your Mars in the unconventional, collective-oriented, free-thinking sign of Aquarius, suggesting that the regeneration of society is a major interest and focus of your attention. Your perceptiveness regarding its underlying, core problems, along with your ability to invent or co-create unusual and innovative solutions, is the key to fulfilling your destiny. Your function is that of a reformer, dissident, or group leader.
Scorpio Rising and Pluto in Scorpio:
Your Pluto is in Scorpio as well, revealing a capacity for entering into the darkest places in order to bring consciousness, light, and healing. If you are drawn to use your powers and abilities selfishly, you will often feel isolated and will be your own worst enemy. You are attuned to depth, rapture, and what some would consider horrible or taboo. You could be a profound healer, Shaman, or medicine man/woman if your motives are clear.
Pluto Conjunct Asc.:
Your intensity, penetrating insight, and keen sensitivity to the hidden underside of things color your entire life expression. By your very way of being, you have a profound and transformative influence on your environment and those around you. You may inspire fear and repulsion as well as unusual devotion. You can be a powerful healer of souls if you confront, transform, and integrate your own darkness, woundedness, and urge for power. In any case, your role is that of bringing what is hidden, buried, and “underground” to the surface.
Chapter 4: Saturn, Your Achilles Heel
Karmically considered, the placement of Saturn in your birth chart indicates where your energetic blockages, weaknesses and fears lie, and the areas of your life where the most concentrated effort and discipline will be required to master and overcome them. Yet it also points to the aspects of life which can become your greatest strength if you are willing to face your fears and difficulties honestly, and work with them patiently.
Saturn in Pisces
You are overly sensitive, and may put up walls and isolate yourself in order to escape the threats that the outside world seems to pose. Vague fears and feelings of being helpless, powerless or victimized by forces greater than yourself may plaque you, and overcoming self doubt, discouragement, loneliness and these “fears of unknown origin” is an ongoing task for you.
You are also apt to feel a strong need to atone for some wrong you have done, even if you can not consciously recall what harm you have caused or why you feel that way. You feel a desire to redeem yourself or purge your guilt (whether earned or not), perhaps through some personal sacrifice. Guilt is your Achilles heel – and you need to carefully examine such feelings, for you may be carrying a cross that is not yours to bear.
You may be afraid of anything that is consciousness -altering (drugs, alcohol, even spiritual exploration) and this may be well-founded. You could lose yourself in any of these. However, a focused, disciplined attitude towards the expansion of consciousness, a particular “path” or a set of regular spiritual practices, etc. can be very stabilizing and helpful to you. Part of your challenge is how to make real and concrete your compassionate, altruistic, idealistic hopes and longings.
Saturn in 3rd house:
In the arena of verbal expression and communication, you will work very hard to develop yourself, and this effort to communicate may go through several phases. First, a painful inability to express yourself in social situations or to partake in the sort of light, amiable chit-chat that promotes goodwill among neighbors and acquaintances. You may be taciturn and inhibited, even with your brothers and sisters, afraid of saying the wrong thing or of being ridiculed. Being humiliated when speaking may be one of your greatest fears, and even talking on the telephone can be uncomfortable unless it is a serious or necessary conversation. For you it is much easier to discuss facts and concrete information than to reveal personal feelings or opinions. You tend to form your own opinions and ideas in solitude, and thus miss out on a lot by not getting other people’s input. You may also be very critical of others’ speech or ideas. Not only do you edit yourself, the people around you are also objects of your critiques. Always correcting other people’s words or line of thinking may not make you very popular, and if you allow this negative tendency to flourish, you may find yourself socially isolated. However, through your struggle to be clear and accurate and to know your own mind, you may become extraordinarily articulate, thus turning your Achilles heel into a significant asset.
Chapter 5: The Hard Aspects
The following is a description of your MAJOR LIFE CHALLENGES, both in terms of energies you are to learn to develop and express in a positive way, and those which are the result of struggles and unresolved karmic issues which you have brought into this life.
Mercury is Retrograde:
A prior lifetime in which you were discouraged to think, learn, or express your ideas is indicated. This may have carried over in this lifetime as a mild learning problem in childhood, or inner (somewhat unconscious) doubts about your ability to learn or to communicate. Thus, you have a habit of rechecking, reconsidering, reviewing, and rethinking everything before you put it out. You may even have a desire to learn about subjects that seem archaic, to learn about those things which were denied to you in the past.
Mercury Conjunct Mars:
One of your challenges in this lifetime is to learn to use your sharp intellect and quick tongue in ways that are constructive and beneficial to you and those around you. At your worst you can be verbally abusive, overpowering others with your intellectual arguments or criticism, and create enormous animosity and ill will in the process. Try not to bark orders or command or be so quick to turn all of you encounters into an opportunity to prove yourself right. You may thus gain a reputation for being pushy and quarrelsome which certainly will not work in your favor. The hard-shell approach generally back fires.
Certainly there are some arenas where a clear, sharp intellect and the ability to state your opinions forcefully are an asset, courtroom law, for instance, or in certain academic climates and pursuits. Confrontation, self-assertion, and expressing anger does have its place, but when you are out of balance with this energy you can experience severe headaches, accident proneness (especially those involving travel, sharp instruments or breaking glass), nervous tension, and, as implied above, discordant relations with people.
It would be helpful for you to learn and regularly practice deep breathing and relaxation techniques to calm your nervous system. Wearing or carrying certain gemstones may facilitate this also, such as rose quartz, jade, emerald, peridot, or chrysoprase. More than anything, however, awareness is the key. Rather than blaming the outside world for things that irritate you, look instead at your own penchant to be argumentative and irritated. If you can harmonize this aspect of your nature, you will evolve a brilliance and clarity of mind, along with the energy and decisiveness to act on your creative ideas.
Mars Square Pluto:
In this lifetime you must confront the nature of power, and you have the opportunity to transform your relationship to power, clear away deep-seated anger and resentment, and release karmic patterns of perpetrator/victim.
If, in your past, you have been the victim of aggression, ruthless force, or misdirected male energy – you may subconsciously fear or even hate men, have great mistrust of people in power or experience problems in sexual relationships (the arena where power/fear dynamics are often most apparent). In addition, you are prone to self-repression, either of anger or of your own strength. If you have very little energy, consider yourself a weak person, or become extremely uncomfortable when others express any anger, you may be holding down a great deal of hostility. Or, you may be angry all of the time “for no reason”. The question of appropriate expression of these intense energies is a delicate one. While repressing them can wreak havoc on your health and sense of well-being, you do not want to unload the deep rage of centuries on innocent people. You may hold your anger or aggression back not only because you fear repercussions (you may have been bludgeoned to a pulp in the past), but also because you sense that whatever is triggering your emotions in the present is not the real problem. In a word, you overreact. (Wanting to kill someone because they forgot to walk the dog is an overreaction).
On the other hand, you may carry an immense burden of guilt because you have been the one who misused your power, strength and/or sexual energies in the past.
Another way you may be expressing this energy is to be intensely and compulsively competitive, acting as if each and every event is a mighty struggle for supremacy, a contest with life or death consequences that you MUST WIN at all costs. You may become compulsively active and productive and driven to “succeed” at all costs. This type of thinking and being creates great stress on your physical, emotional, and spiritual bodies. Very likely it will also have a negative impact on all of your relationships. You will make a lot of enemies and actually force people to turn against you and bring you to your knees. Ruthlessness attracts ruthlessness.
Coming into balance with all of this is a major challenge. Finding a safe place to explore your war-like, destructive, and sadistic self can help. Another key is becoming sufficiently detached so that you can feel and acknowledge all of these energies, and choose when and how to express them without being “taken over” by them. If you are willing to become conscious, you can actually become a great force for good, and can heal and release some very deep wounds you have carried for a long time.
Jupiter is Retrograde:
Moral concerns (including lingering unresolved issues stemming from a prior lifetime or lifetimes in which you exercised poor judgment in moral, ethical, or religious matters) come into play here. Thus, it is especially important for you to maintain high standards while pursuing your aspirations.
Pluto Conjunct North Node:
Profoundly transformative events or crisis will occur in your life periodically as you follow your growth direction. It may be that impersonal forces beyond your control impinge upon your personal destiny. Or, a significant death, failure, or loss will usher in an entirely new life and sense of personal mission. For you, FATE is always an important player.
Chapter 6: Soft Aspects
The following is a description of your GIFTS and STRENGTHS which can help you work with your major life challenges. These are abilities and qualities of heart, mind, and soul which are quite natural to you. You probably take them for granted. Because these represent the lines of least resistance for you, you may rely too much upon them at times; hence, there are some cautions suggested. Still, these are the areas where good flows into your life and/or where you have considerable inner resources.
Moon Trine Mercury:
Your ability to communicate in a personal, sympathetic manner, and to sense and take into account others’ moods and feelings, are some of your gifts. Because you are interested in others’ personal stories and are a good listener, you draw people out and may find yourself the confidante or personal advisor to many. You are also apt to be the sounding board, mediator, or messenger between members of your family. You have natural counseling abilities and innate psychological insight.
You also understand the public temperament and have a sixth sense regarding mass psychology and social trends. The capacity and desire to educate the public and to personally interact with the public is also evident.
You may take your writing abilities and your knack for learning languages and using words for granted. However, if you put any effort at all into tapping these skills, you might be surprised at how natural and easy they come to you.
Moon Trine Mars:
A healthy, vigorous spirit to overcome obstacles, the capacity to initiate projects and act decisively, and a certain purposeful, direct way of dealing with life are gifts you have developed in the past and which you now may draw on at anytime. You have been a warrior and a leader, and were called upon to strike while the iron was hot, so that now you are quite capable of doing the same.
You are innately competitive, and are apt to have good instincts and timing regarding when to act and when to take risks. Courage, boldness, and physical prowess are also yours.
In addition, you know how to stir people’s emotions and mobilize public sentiment, to get other people acting and moving upon the things you care the most about.
Venus Sextile Neptune:
You are highly sensitive and receptive to beauty. You love art, beautiful music, harmony, and love in all its forms. You have delicate feelings and intuitively understand others through compassion. Thus, you naturally want to help, to give, to alleviate suffering where you can, and not just for people, but for all creatures. Your love naturally is inclusive, all embracing and unconditional. This pattern in you bespeaks of considerable spiritual evolvement and refinement. You are one who can walk and talk with the angels. Perhaps the only drawback here is that you are easily bruised, and it is difficult for you to endure harshness, prolonged conflict, and other “earthly” conditions.
Uranus Conjunct Neptune:
You and many others born the year you were have an inherently inspired consciousness and an openness to experimenting with new forms of imagination and understanding. You are drawn to group activities that support personal and planetary awakening. If you so wish, you can access higher dimensions of being quite readily, as you have “opened your channels” through prior spiritual development.